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I got the call today, I didn’t wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin’ on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love’s open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?I’ve been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning them again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There’s a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They’re the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn’t keep us warm
I’ve been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
All the people in your life who’ve come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin’ that anger, it’ll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily ever after
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I’m thinkin’ about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don’t love me anymore
Even if you don’t love me anymore
Love the song.. when I was heard it I was tearing.. But somehow I did not link the song to a relationship between a Man and a Woman, but instead between friends… maybe because the song is a soundtrack from Sex and the City, and it was during the part when Carrie and Marianda were sharing their troubles..
Who say women can’t bond? Though we bitch often, but I guess when there is a need for the ya-ya sisterhood to stand by each other, we are often fiercer than all the men put together. Three cheers for all the ladies out there and all the bonds forged.. all the tears, sweat and pain that we have been through be it with sisters or girl friends!
Hope we will all be able to pull through whatever life puts in our path.. together..
Just went for a ktv-ing session with the girls..
and i realised that all the songs of relationships are about how all ‘turning sour somehow.. dunnoe why it is like that now..’ etc etc.
Change is like a variable. The only constant. Constantly changing.
Scientific explaination will be that we are humans. humans are ever growing, exposed to different things continuously… and thus, our emotions, experience will cause change in our expectations, view of certain things which includes our other half.
Which means.. that asking why is simply useless.. because everything is actually inexplicable..
Really admire people who can just let go and love the other half wholly.. Cos I can’t seem to be able to do just that.. not selfless enough.. can’t give without knowing that I am certainly getting something back for sure.. and hence it is my explaination as to why my relationships do not seem to last beyond 2.5 yrs..
Not sure is it because i have trust issues… or is it deep rooted insecurities? or is it through experience that i have accumulated such issues?
someone once told me that emotions come and go, that we as humans are unable to predict what we will feel even the next day. For instance, one can go to sleep very much in love with this person and when one wakes up, the feelings can just fade.. reasons? or are they just explainations that we logic out to let us understand the human basic instincts?
hmm.. my blog post is not making sense at all~
Cheers~
Got super worked up today… or rather so peck cek that I was unable to say anything further.
I have never worked so hard for something that is such a minor event…
JUST A FUCKING MINOR LAUNCH…
Just because it was not to her whim and fancy, she feels that it is logical to change everything without even caring about what would the so called “ping fan ren”feels or is going through.
It was a mistake made from their department…
It is so tiring to go through endless changes without even a single thankyou.
What right do they have to actually treat us so? They are the government servants.. we are the citizens.. in fact, they are suppose to service us! Just because they draw a higher salary and command a greater number of troops than us, they feel that we are obligated to suck up and please them? Oh please, if I am a paying customer at ur hospital, I AM ALWAYS RIGHT…
hmm.. and so is she.. just because she is my client for the project.
HOWEVER! what comes around goes around…
so.. if ever i get the chance to meet her again, and the situation is reverse, I will make sure she understood what she did before.. to make others suffer..
BITCH!
*wondering if I can do a write up to the forum about this.. * hmmmm……
feeeling the draining sensation again… overcomed by this heavy weight that is pulling me down.
I am so tired to even make the effort to just flip over when I am just lying down… when I wake up in the morning, i do not even have the energy to give myself the extra boost of energy to prop my body up.
I can only snuggle back into my covers and try not to think that today is a work day…
Not sure why is this so, since events is my passion. I still enjoy the events part of it, but I guess week after week of events is not an easy load to take. Especially so when every client is exceptionally demanding. I put on some weight roughly about 2 weeks ago to 46kg and after the last 2 weeks of events, I am back to being a 42 – 43kg weight. AND ITS NOT AS IF I DUN EAT!
god.. not sure if this is healthy or not man…
Is this even normal? or am i just some whiny bitch who cannot take the workload? Sigh~
brain dead… energy-less.. red bull dun even work.
I got the call today, I didn’t wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin’ on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love’s open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I’ve been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning them again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There’s a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They’re the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn’t keep us warm
I’ve been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
All the people in your life who’ve come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin’ that anger, it’ll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I’m thinkin’ about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don’t love me anymore
Even if you don’t love me anymore
Sad sad song.. think its the theme song for Sex and The City.. This is why friends are so important.. lol~
