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Was watching this movie with Jin and her ex-college Ah Koh. Dunnoe, had quite abit of fun. :p
Anyways, I guess some may term the movie a chick-flick, but I think it holds elements of a documentary. Reasons being, it allows women to understand men, and vice versa.
I guess many of us ladies have experienced the feeling of being paranoid in our relationship. Thinking about how our partners are always hanging with friends, why to this age have they not shown a wee bit of responsibility, WHY do they do this? Are they Cheating? etc etc.. the list goes on. (I really admire those girls who say that they have never thought of all this)
And on the guys part, they say women are hard to understand, hard to please. Why do we ask them to change this, change that, aren’t we suppose to love them for who they are? (which is another topic to debate)
Dunnoe, its like me with liang. He once ask me why do I keep asking him to change. Have he ever ask me to change before? Thinking back, he have never put forward to me suggestions of those kind. Urging me only to become more independent, mature, responsible, etc.
And I question myself, why do I make so many request of him them? Am I like a bottomless pit (abit the wrong metaphor, but whatever, get the idea can le) , ever demanding?
Liang once ask me before I got together with me: Do you go searching for the right guy? Or do you believe in making things work between you and someone?
Somehow I think I am the former. Never wishing to work problems out, choosing to run away from problems, from confrontation. Always wanting to find that super perfect guy for me. But I think I found him.
He might not be perfect, but he is the right one. For those who were my friends all through the time I was with my ex-boyfriends, would probably say I always say that. Always wishing in my fairytale mind for the perfect ending.
True, he might not be the most responsible guy I know, that he might not be someone whom I can see myself with even in 5 years. (being the skeptical me) That he might not be the most caring boy I have ever met, he might have neglect me in some ways.
But, he love me for who I am. Despite my never-ending demands, despite my nagging, despite me being a bitch to him, despite me even digging my nose in front of him.. (gross right.. *paiseh*) In spite of my flaws, he holds me dear and adores me. What more can I ask for?
Despite all these thoughts, I cant stop myself from thinking that maybe we might not end up together after all.
Shit.. Thoughts are attacking my brain tonight.
Back to the movie. Realize that many things do not go according to plan, according to your dreams. So what you can do is to dig in your heels and solve the problem, and not choose to run away.
Keep saying this, but I really hope I can become a woman, who face up with my own problems, and not hide behind people hoping that they can solve my problem.
Also, realize that a relationship that went through hardships, ups and downs is more valuable than something that have never gone through any difficulties. (Not saying that the latter is bad!) For me at least, cos for me, that relationship shows that both partners are willing to work together to solve issues, to overcome problems!
kk. Think I need to turn off my emotional tap liao. Later overflow and spill than no that gd.
Lastly what I learn from the movie! WEAR CONDOMS! hurhru~
ALso, things will always work out, if you are willing to work for it!
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Never really update it on my blog, but I guess people who are close to me do know that I had been working as a legal admin in a law firm this past month. Nothing much, just a small firm with a one lawyer, just me as a part timer in the office. Wanted myself to get use to working in a office, but didn’t want to take the risk of working in a perm job yet. After all, teachers always tell us the only place to make a mistake is in school. Thus, didn’t have the confidence not to screw up my job.
Anyway, long story, and don’t want to be bothered to explain it. So back to the story:
Never had the taste of how my boss is like as a lawyer until today. Learned from experience also, that one should be careful with the words that come out of your mouth. Because people can always turn it against you. So the best is to have it in email, black and white.
Many would ask me what did I learn from this job.
Lessons:
that people out there can be real assholes,
that you need to build a reputation that you can’t be bullied,
that you always need to protect yourselves against things,
that its better to have everything in black in white than just verbal confirmation,
that plenty of people divorce,
that its really troublesome to go through with it,
that it hurts the children more than anything,
that it never hurts to be careful
I guess many people would say these are things that they already learn when studying. But somehow I always tell them: I don’t want to be a hypocrite, I want to be someone who speaks my mind, how I feel, To be my real self.
That’s well I do not do well in formal or rather Biz Comm writing, because I prefer to be more direct and tell people what I feel and to communicate what I want to say like myself, with loads of emoticons and expressions on my face, to show freely my emotions to people around me.
Realize that I still have plenty to learn…
Was trying to move my previous posts from http://www.padprint.blogspot.com to my current blog spot. However, got too lazy and tired. But well, you gotta forgive me for that! I started blogging when I was in the second year of JC. Just imagine! And man, do I blog last time!
Anyway, went for this interview for a position in a shipping company. Position offered: Marketing and Admin Executive. The jobscope is pretty interesting. Not that much of sales, more of meeting existing clients, touching base with them etc. More of entertaining, handling of public relations etc. (There was a reason why I used to be termed Social Butterfly)
I really like the people at the company, though its a pretty small company, given that its only an agent to a pretty huge company. (Florens) Think its probably a YES for me. Now just thinking of my pay package. Was told to give them a figure. But not entirely sure how to I go about negotiating pay.
Anyway, that aside. Think I am a pretty lucky fellow. Career wise I mean. Was reading my backlogs of my previous blogs and realize that I had been working since like what.. Sec 2. Be it that I always get cheated out of my pay, not getting paid and all, working like an idiot who do not know how to “tou lan”, but think I am always employed.
Not sure is it luck, or is it because I am someone who just do what I am told. Happy go Lucky person as what my hairdresser told me. Hence the luck and opportunity always present themselves to me. Well, shall do my best at this! Never held a perm job before, so think it might be pretty tough to handle this.
JIAYOU!
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin’ down the street, and I hardly know you
It’s just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you when we’re out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn’t right
And I’ve got someone waiting too
What if this is just the beginning
We’re already wet, and we’re gonna go swimming
Why can’t I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can’t I speak whenever I talk about you
It’s inevitable, it’s a fact that we’re gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can’t I breathe whenever I think about you
Isn’t this the best part of breakin’ up
Finding someone else you can’t get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It’s an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn’t it be beautiful
Here we go, we’re at the beginning
We haven’t fucked yet, but my heads spinning
Why can’t I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can’t I speak whenever I talk about you
It’s inevitable, it’s a fact that we’re gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can’t I breathe whenever I think about you
High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it’s goin’
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin’s growin’
out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin’
Why can’t I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can’t I speak whenever I talk about you
Why can’t I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can’t I speak whenever I talk about you
It’s inevitable, it’s a fact that we’re gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can’t I breathe whenever I think about you
Can’t explain why I like this song. Most probably because of the movie 13 Going 30. About how this young girl made a wish on her 13th birthday to be a grown up (forgot if she included popular inside), but apparently she woke up to become 30 years old. In a high flying and glamorous job, having a hot shot boyfriend. Everything seems like its going well, but somehow when reality came crashing down, it appears that she had forsaken a friendship with her best buddy, whom she truly loves for those popular bitches.
However the love of her life is ready to be married to this really nice girl. So.. she went back to her house, made a wish. Like a typical lovely fairytale, it ended with her marrying the love of her live, and kicking the bitches asses.
absolutely adore it. Hardcore romantic.
Just like how the skies are gloomy recently with the pouring rain and scary lightnings, my mood mirrors the weather. Not sure if there is a scientific explanation for such a behaviour. Maybe when it storms, there are alot of negative ions in the air that gets into our system.
No doubt its a absolute heaven kind of weather to burrow in bed, (maybe that’s why the foul mood, thinking of the people happily sleeping, whilst i’m stuck in the office) hurhur~
Embarking soon on a new road. Wondering how and where it will bring me. Someone told me, a dream will always remain a dream if there is no action. I guess its time to buckle down and start pursue what I want.
No time to second guess.
Was hanging out with some friends, and someone remark on how easily amuse I am. If that’s true then why do I lapse into depression at times then? I do laugh easily though. Maybe too easily. Taking life too superficially. Reacting to everything and anything with emotions, but not with logic. Never once weighing the consequences behind my actions. Really wish to be alone, and see if I can get through life when I am alone. Not always lounging in the protection of the people around me.
Is it a fault or weakness if one can’t stand on their own? Is it wrong to crave company? Or is it just a different perception, a “to each his own”?
Ever got the feeling that your past somehow catches up to you? That you cannot help but feel overwhelm as it wraps itself around you? Sort of like a mist or fog, choking you, surrounding you with so many memories and images.
Don’t know why, but recently keep facing this problem. Overwhelm with the past happenings, thinking of what I have done or did before. Went for the convocation ceremony today. Sort of regret why I didn’t push or why I didn’t understood the why I am in the school.
However, I don’t think even if I push myself to do well, will be because I want my fellow peers to look up to me due to the winning of some book price etc. It will be probably for my parents. Felt really down with myself and my achievements. Haha~ But well, its an experience that can be pass on but only when the particular student comprehend what it truly means then will it mean something.
张震岳/蔡健雅 思念是一种病
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那黱美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
Love this song so much ever since Wei Zhong sent it to me. Can’t explain why, but just found the lyrics super meaningful. Kitz say before that when someone like the song alot, it probably meant that the song meant something to them in some way or the other. Think with me feeling emotional and stuff, that is probably true.
Do try to find this song on youtube or something, think you guys will love it.
Been a long time since I am free to actually do an entry on just random feelings. Was reading this book “The Adultery Club”, and was suddenly struck with this fear of it happening in the future.
Just like the movie, of how this lady actually cheated on her husband even though their marriage was happy, and their sex life great, etc. In the end the husband found out and in a fit of jealousy rage killed the lover. It created such a mambo jambo at that time as people did not expect the woman from such a happy relationship to cheat. To just throw everything away in one passionate moment. Passion was after all supposed to be limited to the man. And a woman is suppose to be able to rationalize the fact that this cheap fling would actually ultimately destroy everything that her life supposedly revolves around.
The idea of cheating is somehow happening around me as the years goes by. In movies, in gossips, etc. Was it the fact that society had change? Or was it just that once you have grown up, the fairytale of one man one woman and living happily ever after was just a facade. A picture that erodes away slowly as you are alerted to the vices of the world etc.
The thought that one can give all you can, and your partner supposedly in love and having a great time with you can actually throw that all away. Or even the fact that emotions can just fade away in a blink of an eye.
I guess one can simply just say “welcome to the real world”, or even that there are cases where couples or even friends do live happily ever after. Guess its true, but somehow, the knowledge that the world is not as perfect as it was when you were reading the lovely ‘happily ever afters’ is enough to induce fear into me.
Have not been updating my blog for the longest of times. Anyway, was working for Ntt Docomo yet again. So enjoyable once again. Met a group of wonderfully crazy girls who are so ready to let themselves go. Think I was the more reserved one. Use to it le I guess.
Went to the first day training with much apprehension. First of all it was my third year in a roll working for the company and was just wondering what else can they come up with. *trust me, their technological advancement is parallel to how the mid 20’s Singaporean waistline expands* Once again was bowled over by the speed of their brains. Actually, Freak Out is the word that I kept using that day.
Secondly was because the batch of girls whom we were working together with were mostly gone. Left only, me and puifun. Sincerely upsetting I would say. Its like you have to get use to new members in your family kind of feeling, but well, they turned out really fine and outrageously fun!
This year was also much different from the previous. Felt so much more stressed due to the docomo staff behind us when we are explaining the techno concepts. Well, me being me, I will start speaking really fast and start mumbling. So had to tell myself a few times to cool down. This year met a few irritating booth vistors yet again. I wonder do they know we show girls actually bitch like this about them. If they do, I wonder why do they ask so many difficult questions which they themselves know nuts about.
Case 1:
“Its IFRD” ? “Its NFD”
Then when i start going into techno talk.. they stare up at me with a blank face.
“Well sir, there is a slight difference between this technology and the one you are talking about. For example NFD (forgot what is the term.. Near Field… something) is TYPE A and C, but Felica (the techno that I was demoing about) is Type C.
BLANK LOOK
me: WTH.. but still smiling.
“oh.. so what is the diff btw Type A and C.”
Hell.. like you need to know. URGHZ!!
I know because they are visitors so we ahve to treat them with certain respect, but seriously sometimes THEY ARE JUST OUT FOR THEIR OWN BLOOD! I bet all the show girls at the show agree with me!
Case 2:
Me: And the handsets even have biometric authentication.. blah blah blah… fingerprint reading, etc..
Customer: Wah.. that’s dangerous? There was a case in the news saying that after mercedez came up with a fingerprint authentication to lock and unlock their car, there was this guy whose fingers got chopped off by the thief wor!
Case 2
Me: (-_-)~ *inside: wth…* erm.. erm… hurhur.. then well.. protect ur fingers?? get the face authentication ah.. don’t think ppl will chop off your head just to still a phone ah.. 
quite clever of me dun u think.. then started using this case to make ppl luff.
Me: BUT! if u scared of ppl choppin off your fingers to steal ur phone! Then… (ntt docomo also provide additonal security)
Customer: Crazy ah.. won’t happen one lah..
Me: HURHURHUR~~~
see! wth..
Case 3:
Me: So you see, as compared to your wallet, all these handset security blah blah blah for the mobile wallet is actually additional security for your wallet. When u lose your wallet you hve to report to police, and start getting a whole new set of information. However, when you lose your mobile wallet, say in Japan, you can lock your information and even retrive your information from Docomo’s database.
Customer: OH.. but i don’t lose my wallet as often as I lose my handphone..
Me: Still trying hard to smile.. hurhur~~ Then I dunnoe how to help le…
And her friends were actually looking at me sheepishly can?! what a lady.. If she is my friend hor.. I will definitely suan her.. humphz~
Case 4
What if ppl hack into the database? Won’t they get to use everything in there? So dangerous..
Me: Shock face.. hmm..
OOH MY GOD. how paraniod ppl are? I mean comeon.. big companies would have already hired professional hackers to test their system le lo.
STALKERS
Over the years after you have worked at different trade shows, you realise that there are this bunch of people who are what we call stalkers, or even collectors. They stalk the whole convention in search of freebies. I repeat Freebies to collect, no matter what type. Even a paper bag would be good enough for them.
As I have been working there for like 3 years, I have kept a memory log of certain peeps that belong to this category.
*Auntie 1*
She comes year after year. asking for any freebies that we can give. And when we say we can’t, she will start to whine abit. Wearing our defences down by going on and on about why she wants it. *faints*
*Uncle 1*
This gentleman here strolls in to our booth. Eyeballed the survey boards then eyeballed me. Then eyeball the pen (red leaf pen) on the side of the board, look at me, then… reach out his hand for the pen. I could see little thought bubbles coming out of his head all the time.
*is that free?*
*hmm.. what is free here?*
*maybe do survey get free pen.. hmm..*
*k, jst grab the pen, the pen!*
(0_0)~~
*VIP guests*
What’s wrong with these people! I assume that when you are a VIP to the booth you must be some kind of big shot in your own company. According to my Jap boss, she was telling me that this VIP came up to her and demanded the magazines we were displaying on our “demostration shopping rack”. When she refused, he was like “but I’m the VIP, I’m suppose to get whatever I ask for.”
sigh~~~
Alrites.. think that is about it for now. kind of ran out steam there.
