Make You Feel My Love

Make You Feel My Love – Adele

hope i can still feel this way… hope there is a reason for me to feel this way..

真希望你从没踏入我的人生

也许没有你的出现我也就不会有如此的感觉

没有你的出现就不会心酸心痛，不会不知所措

没有你在的世界就不会如此的痛苦

可是就因为你得出现。。。也许让我体会世间的复杂

我没有理由还呆在你的身边

论经济，论安全感，论你所能给我的幸福

样样你都不能给我最好的。。。 我对你的信任也以动摇，不如以前

但我不明白的是为什么我还在原地踏步

Just a Dream – Nelly

后来

why would we hurt the ones we say we treasure the most..

Irony

The irony of the situation is that… as a result of wanting to avoid being hurt of feeling the pain, i’m on a constant look out for things or events which will cause me that exact thing.

which makes me question… so what is the point?

i can’t seem to forgive.. no matter what i tell myself.. when i can’t forgive i can’t forget, i can’t move on…
so where does this leaves me?

there are certain situations in the world where u tell yourself.. you will never be able to make sense out of it.

and yet…

impossible

made the decision..

i’m sure everyone will disagree with my decision. maybe it is still not time to give up. and i need that probably slap to wake up if it ever comes.

they said that after some time you feel numb… i beg to differ…

though the numbness the pain seems even more vivid..

i want to move on. but i do not have the strength. i feel as though everything is being sucked out of me..

blow after blow after blow.. i do not how much longer i can hold on..

i am human.. i just want to feel loved, respected, treasured by my other half.. why does this feel like such an impossible task?

Going in circles

left yu Liang cos I felt that he does not treasure me or even love me enough. The night we ended our relationship. I understood that he did, on hindsight.

I listened to him cry, and cried. That I felt no strength to carry on with something that was probably not mine.

Relationships are at times one of the hardest thing for anyone to understand. We look at a couPle very much in love and we admire them, but we do not know the downs that they face.
I used to think that I am happy. But maybe all I was living in was a lie. But because it was a lie, a make believe, it made me happier.

I use tO think that I am great at reading ppl. But I Jo longer think so. After all.. How can I be, when I could not even detect that all these was a lie.

My emotions are like this weird sense of calm. Which is driving me ballistic.

Crazy. Madness. Insanity. What’s the point?

When we live in a world where we want to believe in things which we should believe in. Choosing to ignore signs, reason and logic.

Someone please wake me up from this horrible nightmare. That which just seems to get worst as the dreams grow longer.